I am so bloody excited! I finally, after ten or fifteen years of searching, have found the basic idea behind the novel I want to write. It's an interesting and uncommon idea/conflict, it's interesting to think about, it would be, if I can pull it off, interesting to read. I now have some experience to draw from, and it could get very simply and very deeply psychological. It can be dramatic, it can be romantic, it can be philosophical, it can be psychological. It's perfect!

Ack, I'm so excited! I'm writing something and it's more of a romance/sex thing right now, but it was intended to get the "creative juices" flowing so to speak, and it worked!

Did I mention how excited I am yet?

I'm so anxious to get started, but I'm going to study and contemplate and review the ideas in question I want to work with first, so here I am, and we can discuss the ideas in question for awhile, if anybody is interested.

Key note:

Chesterton - "Orthodoxy"

"Obviously a suicide is the opposite of a martyr. A martyr is a man who cares so much for something outside him, that he forgets his own personal life. A suicide is a man who cares so little for anything otuside him, that he wants to see the last of everything. One wants something to begin: the other wants everything to end. In other words, the marty is noble, exactly because (however he renounces the world or execrates all humanity) he confesses this ultimate link with life; he sets his heart outside himself: he dies that something may live. The suicide is ignoble because he has not this link with being: he is a mere destoyer; spiritually, he destroys the universe."


Now, that's just a thought, but there is a thought more fascinating, beyond this one, where the suicide has no choice in his desire to die, and potentially when his death is to him an act of martyrdom (Muslims, for instance). "There is no greater love than this, that a man may offer his life for his friends." - Christ

I would love to get knee deep in the reasonings of the Romans in killing themselves on the battlefield, how that was a noble thing to do and into the idea behind how it is expected that a captain must sink with his ship, that that is a noble idea to some people. The difference between the Catholic Saint, and the Roman soldier. The Muslim, the nihilist, the Christian, the pagan, etc., etc., etc.

Oh man, there's so much to look at, so much to read, so much to study, so much to write!

So it begins.

Any thoughts on the subject?